My darling Zuni, my beautiful dog, died on Wednesday. I'm not going to go into it because I'm gutted. But the whole thing has brought back to me how much I rely on fiction. Medicine is amazing, wonderful, but when it can no longer help, fiction has always been a vital source of comfort.
I think it is good to have books of different kinds - books that stretch your mind, and books that comfort you. Sometimes a book ends up doing both those things. Many books do neither. I follow Alom Shaha on Twitter and a while back he said that he'd been so disappointed in so many books that he felt like he'd somehow lost the ability to enjoy novels. Various replies sympathized; one woman said that she tended to re-read old favourites just to feel what it was to love books again. It was a good thread to find, because I have been feeling this way and wondering what's wrong with me.
I know that there are good books out there. But, like Mr Shaha and the others, I keep finding myself a quarter of the way through a promising-looking novel, wondering where the joy is. I keep reading books that have no heart. Books that have a kind of bleakness to them, in which I feel like the writer is saying, We will not be lowering ourselves to the level of enjoyment. We are too sophisticated for that. I like a good plot, well-constructed, ingenious. Imagine a cat's cradle, taut. Instead plots are loose and sagging - but only Philistines hanker after plot. Characters are hollow and behave in nihilistic ways that human beings almost never do.
I can't help but suspect a kind of selfishness and egotism on the part of the writer when I read a book like this. The past week or two I had been reading Kazuo Ishiguro's When We Were Orphans. I hadn't read any of his other books and my husband bought me this one partly because it was a sort of detective novel, and a good whodunit is something I relish. This is not a good whodunit - there is no ingenious plot, there are no clues or satisfying tying together of strands. Like several other reviewers on Goodreads, I assumed at some point the events would turn out to be a dream, because it made very little sense. The 'plot twist' when it happens involves, as so often is the case, the rape of a woman. It ends on a flat note and is the kind of book that would leave me depressed even on a normal day.
Yesterday was not a normal day. Ishiguro owes me nothing, of course, and the idea that books should avoid disturbing themes or scenes is a terrible one. I have no wish to wrap my mind in cotton wool. I've read books that have included very dark things, but I felt like they were an integral part of a story that ultimately gave me something. It's that, I think, that leaves me slightly resentful. I just find so many books ungenerous. They are caviar - not tasty, enjoyable or even nutritious, but the fact that you consume them tells you and others that you are the right sort of person.
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